特别的追悼AnSpeeral
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Whydidthememoryofthatdeadchildseekmeoutoifulday?Tillthen,nointimationofsorrowhadethroughthedazzliionsofasummerthatsang。
Ithappenedmanyyearsago。IhadjustarrivedinasmallvillageinManitoba,ada,tofinishtheschoolyearasreplatforateacherwhohadfallenillorsimply,forallIknew,beedisced。
&imeesforyoutoapplyforapermaion,”theprincipalofthenormalschoolhadtoldme,“You'llbeabletosaythatyou'vehadexperience。”
AndsoIfoundmyselfinspringinthatverype—justafewshacks,withnothingaroundbutspindlirees。“Amonth,”Iaskedmyself,“willthatbeloobeeattachedtothe?Willamoheeffort?”
&hesamecalwasinthemindsofthe,forIhadneverseenfacessodejected,soapatheticorperhapssorrowful。Ihadhadsolittleexperience。Imyselfwashardlymorethanachild。
Nineo'e。TheroomwashotasaimesinManitobaanitlesinduridaysofJune。
Sowiobegiendandcalledtheroll。ThehemostpartFrendtodaytheystillreturntomymemory,likethis,fornoreason:MadeleineBerube,JosephatBrisset,EmilienDumont,Cee。。。
Butmostofthewhorosea,mamzelle”,whentheirnameswerecalledhadtheslightlynarrowedeyes,warmga-blackhairthattoldofmetisblood。
Theywerebeautifulaelypolite;therewasreallynothihemforexcepttheinceivabledistaaihemselvesacrushedme。“Isthiswhatarelike,then,”Iaskedmyselfwithanguish,“untouchable,barrisionwhereyou'treachthem?”
IeYolarand。
Nooneanswered。Irepeatedthenameaherewasstillnoanswer,Ilookedupatfacesthatseemedtomepletelyi。
&hebackofthe,abovethebuzzingofflies,aroseavoiceI'tplaceatfirst。“She'sdead,mamzelle。Shediedlastnight。”
Perhapseveressingthahecalm,leveltohechild'svoice。
“Ah,”Isaid,lostforwords。
Welookedatoherinsilenceftime,theandI。hattheexpressiohatIhadtakenforindifferencewasaheavysadness。
“Sinde。。。wasyoursate。。。wouldyoulike。。。afterschoolatfouro'cloandvisither?”
Onthesmall,muchtooseriousfacesthereappearedthetrailes,wary,stillsad,butsmilesjustthesame。
AtfirstpastfourIfoundmostofthemwaitihedood20,butmakihaniftheywerebeierschool。Severalofthemweoshowmetheway。Otherspressedaroundmesoclosely。Icouldscarcelymove。Fiveorsixofthesmalleroookmebythehandandpulledmefentlyasiftheywereleadingabliheydidnottalk,merelyheldmeeheircircle。
&her,inthisway,wecametoawoodendinginisolationamongthirees。Itsdooren,sowewereabletoseethedeadeintheroomfromquitefaroff。Shehadbeenlaidhboardssuspe>
&shadundoubtedlydoheycouldfortheirchild。Theyhadcoveredherwithasheet。Hermother,probably,hadarrangedherhairiwhtbraidsthatframedthethisneedhadsentthemaurchaseofatown,orafewmoreboardstomakeherohemselves。
Thechildhadadelicatelittleface,verywasted,withtheseriousexpressiohefaostofthehere,asifthecaresoftheadultshadcrushedthemalltooearly。Shemighthavebeen10or11yearsold。
Thewerewatgme。IrealizedtheyedeverythihoughIdidn'tknowmuchmorethahenIhadasortofinspiration。
“Don'tyouthinkYolandewouldliketohavesomeohheralwaystillthetimeithertotheground?”
ThefacesofthetoldmeIhadstrucktherightnote。
“We'lltaketurnsthen,fourorfivearouwohours,untilthefubeottoletthefliestouchherface。”
Theyagreedwithaglowintheirdarkeyes。Standingarouheyrustinmesoplete,anditterrifiedme。
Inagamoreesashortdistanceaway,Inoticedabright-pinkstainonthegroundwhosesour'tyetknow。Thesu,makingitflame,theohisdaythathadbeentouchedbyagrace。
“Whatsirlwasshe?”Iasked。
Atfirstthedidn'tuhenaboyofaboutthesameagesaidwithtenderseriousness,“Shewassmart,Yolande。”