第5章一只狗狗的告白ADog’sLastWill(2)
&hehumanbabiesgandIsharedyourext。Iwasfasatedbytheirpiheysmelled,aherthem,too。OnlysheandyouworriedthatImighthurtthem,aofmytimebaherrcrate。Oh,howIwaolovethem,butIbecamea“prisoneroflove”。Astheybegantogrow,Ibecametheirfriend。
&omyfurahemselvesuponwobblylegs,pokedfingersiigatedmyears,andgavemekissesonmynose。Ilaboutthemaouch—becauseyourtouowsoi—andIwouldhavedefehmylifeifneedbe。Iwouldsheirbedsaheirworriesadreams,aedforthesoundofyourthedrive>
Therehadbeehersaskedyouifyouhadadog,thatyouproduefromyourwalletandtoldthemstoriesaboutme。Thesepastfewyears,youjustanswered“yes”ahesubject。Ihadg“y”to“justadog”,aedeveryexpenditureonmybehalf。Now,youhaveaunityiy,andyouandtheywillbemovingtoadoesnotallowpets。You’vemadetherightdeforyour“family”,buttherewasatimewhenIwasyouronlyfamily。
Iwasexcitedaboutthecarrideuntilwearrivedattheasmelledofdogsandcats,offear,ofhopelessness。Youfilledoutthepaperworkandsaid“Iknowyouwillfindagoodhomeforher”。Theyshruggedandgaveyouapaiheyuherealitiesfagamiddle-ageddog,eveh“papers”。Youhadtopryyourson’sfingersloosefrommycollar,asheso,Daddy。Pleasedoakemydog!”AndIworriedforhim,andwhatlessonsyouhadjusttaughthimaboutfriendshipandloyalty,aboutloveandresponsibility,andaboutrespectforalllife。
Yougavemeagood-byepatonthehead,avoidedmyeyes,andpolitelyrefusedtotakemydleashwithyou。Youhadadeadliandoo。Afteryouleft,thetwoniceladiessaidyouprobablykymovemonthsagoaempttofihergoodhome。Theyshooktheirheadsandasked,“Howcouldyou”
Theyareasatteoushereiheirbusyschedulesallow。Theyfeedus,ofcourse,butIlostmyappetitedaysago。Atfirst,assedmypehefront,hopingitwasyou—thatyouhadind—thatthiswasallabaddream…orIhopeditwouldatleastbesomeonewhoightsaveme。WhenIrealizedIpetewiththefroligforattentionofhappypuppies,oblivioustotheirowreatedtoafard>
Iheardherfootstepsassheeattheendoftheday,aheaisleafterhertoaseparateroom。Ablissfullyquietroom。Sheplathetableandrubbedmyears,aoworry。Myheartpouiofwhatwastoe,buttherewasalsoaseheprisoneroflovehadrunoutofdays。Asismynature,Iwasmoreedabouther。Theburdenwhichshebearsweighsheavilyonher,andIknowthat,thesamewayIknewyoureverymood。Shegeouraroundmyfasatearrandownhercheek。IlickedherhandinthesamewayIusedtoanyyearsago。Sheexpertlyslidthehypodermieedleintomyveiingandthecoolliquidgthroughmybody,Ilaydownsleepily,lookedintoherkindeyesandmurmured,“Howcouldyou”
Perhapsbecausesheuoodmydogspeak,shesaid“I’msosorry。”Shehuggedme,andhurriedlyexplaiwasherjobtomakesureIlace,whereIwouldn’tbeignoredorabusedorabandoned,orhavetofendformyself—aplaceofloveandlightsoverydifferentfromthisearthlyplace。
Andwithmylastbity,Itriedtoveytoherofmytailthatmy“Howcouldyou”washer。Itwasyou,MyBelovedMaster,Iwasthinkingof。Iwillthinkofyouandwaitforyouforever。Mayeveryoneinyourlifeuetoshowyousomuchloyalty。