第17章论出游OnGoingaJourney
威廉·哈兹里特>
&hepleasahingsinthewoingajourIliketogobymyself。Ijoysoaroom;butoutofdoors,natureispanyenoughforme。Iamthenneverlessalohan>
"Thefieldshisstudy,naturewashisbook。"
Iotseethewitofwalkingandtalkiime。WhenIamiryIwishtovegetatelikethetry。Iamnotforcritighedge-rowsandblackcattle。Igooutoftowetthetownandallthatisihosewhoforthispurposeg-pladcarrythemetropoliswiththem。Ilikemoreelbowroomandfewerince。Ilikesolitude,whenIgivemyselfuptoit,forthesakeofsolitude;nordoIaskfor"afriendi,ersolitudeissweet。"
Thesoulofajourneyisliberty,perfectliberty,tothink,feel,do,justasonepleases。Wegoajourobefreeofallimpedimentsandofallioleaveourselvesbehind,muchmetridofothers。ItisbecauseIwantalittlebreathiomuseoers,whereplation"Mayplumeherfeathersagrs,ThatinthevariousbustleofresortWerealltooruffled,aimesimpaired,"thatIabsehetoithoutfeelingatalossthemomebymyself。Insteadofafriendinapost-chaiseorinaTilbury,toexgegoodthingswith,andvarythesamestaletaimehaveatrucewithimpertiheclearblueskyovermyhead,aurfbehmyfeet,awindingroadbeforeme,andthreehours'marer--ahinking!ItishardifIameontheselohs。Ilaugh,Irun,Ileap,Isingforjoy。FromthepointcloudIpluomypastbeihere,asthesun-burntIndianplungesheadlongihatwaftshimtohishenlottenthi;sunkenwralesstreasuries,"burstupo,aofeel,think,andbemyselfagain。Insteadofanawkwardsileemptsatwitordullon-plaeisthatundisturbedsileheheartrefeelikespuions,antitheses,argument,andahanIdo;butIsometimeshadratherbewithoutthem。"Leave,oh,leavemetomyrepose!"Ihavejustnowotherbusinessinhand,whiidletoyou,butiswithme"verystuffofthece。"Isnotthiswildrosesweetwithoutaehisdaisyleaptomyheartsetinitserald?YetifIweretoexplaintoyouthecethathassoeome,youwouldonlysmile。HadIheomyself,aservemetobroodover,fromheretypoint,andfromtheothefar-distanthorizon?Ishouldbebutbadpanyallthatway,andtherefalosaidthatyoumay,whenthemoodyfiteson,walkorrideonbyyourself,andindulgeyourreceives。Butthislookslikeabreaaofothers,ahinkihatyououghttorejoinyourparty。"Outuponsuchhalf-facedfellowship,"sayI。Iliketobeeithereomyself,orehedisposalofothers;totalkorbesilent,towalkorsitstill,tobesociableorsolitary。IleasedwithaionofMr。p;apos;s,thathethought"itabadFrentodrinkourwihourmeals,andthatanEnglishmanoughttodooatime。"SoIottalkandthink,einmelanusingandlivelyversationbyfitsandstarts。
"L"Letmehaveayway,""ssaysSter;W"Wereitbuttoremarkhowtheshadowslehesu;Itisbeautifullysaid;but,inmyopinion,thisualparierfereswiththeinvoluntaryimpressionofthingsuponthemind,andhurtsthese。Ifyouonlyhintwhatyoufeelinakindofdumbshow,itisinsipid;ifyouhavetoexplainit,itismakingatoilofapleasure。Youotreadthebookofbeiuallyputtothetroubleitforthebehers。Iamforthissyhodonajourotheanalytical。Iamttolayinastockofideasthen,andtoexamiomisethemafterwards。Iwanttoseemyvaguenotionsfloatlikethedowlebeforethebreeze,andnottohavethemehebriarsandthornsoftroversy。Foroohaveitallmyownway;andthisisimpossibleunlessyouarealone,orinsupanyasIdo。Ihaveueapointwithawentymilesofmeasuredroad,butnotforpleasure。Ifyouremarkthestofabeanfieldgtheroad,perhapsyourfellow-travellerhasnosmell。Ifyoupointtoadista,perhapsheisshhted,andhastotakeouthisglasstolookatit。Thereisafeeliohecolorofacloud,whichhitsyourfancy,buttheeffectofwhichyouareuoatfor。Thereisthennosympathy,butanuneasygafterit,andadissatisfawhichpursuesyouontheway,andintheendprobablyproducesill-humor。NowIneverquarrelwithmyself,andtakeallmyownsfraillIfiodefeobjes。
Itisyoumaynotbeofatheobjedcircesthatpresentthemselvesbeforeyou--thesemayreumberofobjedleadtoassostoodelidrefiobepossiblyuhers。YettheseIlovetodsometimesstillfondlyclutchthem,efrtodoso。Togivewaytbeforeparavaganceoraffe;aherhaouhismysteryateveryturn,aakeaerestiheendisnotaasktowhichfeete"giveitaanding,but;MyoldfriendCe,however,coulddoboth。Hecouldgoodelightfulexplanatorywayoverhillanddaleasummer'sdayaalaoadidaoraPi;Hetalkedfarabovesinging。"IfIyideasinsoundingandflhtperhapswishtohavesomeooadmiretheswellingtheme;orIoret,wereitpossibleformestilltohearhisegvoithewoodsofAll-Fox-den。Theyhad"thatfihemwhichourfirstpoetshad";andiftheycouldhavebeencaughtbysomerarei,wouldhavebreathedsusasthefollowing:
"Herebewoodsasgreen
Asany,airlikewiseasfresha
AswhensmoothZephyrusplayso
&hecurledstreams,withfloos;asmany
Astheyives,andaschoiy;
Herebealls,andwells,
Arbourso&aprooodbine,ddells;
Choosewherethouwilt,whilstIsitbyandsing,
atherrushestomakemanyaring,
Ffialesoflove,
Hohoebe,huntinginagrove,
FirstsawtheboyEndymion,fromwhoseeyes
&erneverdies;
Howshep;apos;dhimsoftlyinasleep
Histemplesboundwithpoppy,tothesteep
HeadofoldLatmos,whereshestoopseaight,
Gildiaiher'slight,
Tokisshersweetest。"